{"id":289,"date":"2020-09-28T05:16:14","date_gmt":"2020-09-28T03:16:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/?p=289"},"modified":"2020-09-28T07:37:27","modified_gmt":"2020-09-28T05:37:27","slug":"that-bright-darkness-gloria-anzaldua","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/?p=289","title":{"rendered":"That bright darkness – Gloria Anzald\u00faa"},"content":{"rendered":"

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That bright darkness<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You have closed the door again<\/p>\n

to run away from the darkness<\/p>\n

but in your armoire waits the night.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Your buried self was imposed<\/p>\n

it chose me to force a fissure<\/p>\n

to hear the unvoiced plea<\/p>\n

to see the beast behind the bars<\/p>\n

of your eyelashes.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I am the only one with round face,<\/p>\n

and indian traits, brown-skinned<\/p>\n

in the faculty, the workshop, the class<\/p>\n

the only one who dares to face you.<\/p>\n

I am the flesh in which you pin your nails<\/p>\n

mine is the hand you cut still attached to it<\/p>\n

mine the stained face because of your puke.<\/p>\n

I am gambling your corduroy<\/p>\n

and mine.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I want to give you the back<\/p>\n

wash my hands<\/p>\n

but they remember every mark<\/p>\n

every nail embedded in the wall<\/p>\n

my feet recognize every stone you step<\/p>\n

when you stumble I am in danger too<\/p>\n

and remember<\/p>\n

those who yelled<\/p>\n

push Gloria breathe Gloria<\/p>\n

I feel their hands lifting me up, encouraging me<\/p>\n

until I face the bloody and throbbing darkness<\/p>\n

that now tries to scream<\/p>\n

from the space between your legs<\/p>\n

I feel again the claws scratching my gut.<\/p>\n

I remember hating it\/me\/them for pressuring me<\/p>\n

as I pressure you now<\/p>\n

I remember the dam breaking<\/p>\n

flooding the walls<\/p>\n

I remember opening the eyes a day<\/p>\n

feeling that something was missing.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The pain was not there, it is gone the fear<\/p>\n

that have stalked me the whole life.<\/p>\n

And then I saw the divine presence<\/p>\n

it was black and had my name<\/p>\n

it talked to me and I talked to it.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Here we are, four women covered in guilt<\/p>\n

you for not pronouncing the names<\/p>\n

me for not lending a hand before.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how long I could continue invoking<\/p>\n

that dark animal<\/p>\n

getting it out from you, from me<\/p>\n

calling it god or goddess<\/p>\n

while everyone says no no no.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I know I am the Beast that fences your home<\/p>\n

glimpses your window<\/p>\n

and that you feel my prey.<\/p>\n

But I know that the Beast is you<\/p>\n

you its prey<\/p>\n

you who gives it the light<\/p>\n

you that bright darkness<\/p>\n

And I know everything its reduced to this:<\/p>\n

life or death, life or death.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

  That bright darkness   You have closed the door again to run away from the darkness but in your armoire waits the night.   Your buried self was imposed it chose me to force a fissure to hear the unvoiced plea to see the beast behind the bars of your eyelashes.   I am […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":10753,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25,27,24,15],"tags":[26],"class_list":["post-289","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-english","category-feminismo","category-poesia","category-traduccion","tag-gloria-anzaldua"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/289","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/10753"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=289"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/289\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":291,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/289\/revisions\/291"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=289"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=289"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonobx.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=289"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}